this is my starsoaked surrender

This is just some freeform written on one of my bad nights.

this is me, laid out plain and simple
words on a screen, nothing left to hold back
no hiding behind my words this time
just me...uninhibited
silently, to myself, i'm praying you won't read this
but i know you will, because i'll break down and tell you about it
i'm wishing i could return the favor and say something wonderfully
poetic about you
but i'm afraid i can't
the auroral glow in the distance
i see it there in all it's glowing beauty, but i know i can never hold
it
can never touch it, never breathe it into my lungs
i can give it all i have to offer, but i know i can never expect
anything in return
your like some twisted metaphorical Alpha Centauri
close enough to see, but just out of reach
and sitting on the borderline of another black hole to pull myself
out of
but this is sounding silly, i'm hiding behind my words again
i know you don't want me, but take me anyway
this is my star-soaked surrender