Confused

This came from emotion that was triggered by a friend.

I can’t stop thinking,
About what is happening,
About the things around me,
That I don’t understand.

I can’t comprehend,
What she has done,
How she toyed with my emotions,
Just as he has hers.

I am dying to talk,
But I don’t know
What to say,
Or how to say it.

I don’t know
How to tell her,
These thoughts that I have,
These thoughts of her.

I’ve gone insane,
Just thinking of her.
I become dizzy,
With every thought of her.

I am so confused
With all that’s been done.
The more that we do,
The more confused I become.

I need help to organize,
These thoughts of what happened.
What has been going on.
The thoughts of innocence, guilt, and denial.

If only she could understand
What I am going through,
How my mind is filled
With clutter and disarray.

She says that she
Want me to be with her friend.
But is it true? I do know that
I am so attached to her.

I’ve caught her little tricks.
I know what she wants.
I know what she is thinking.
But how correct am I?

It doesn’t matter
Anymore.
No one is perfect, so,
Let me steady myself.