To See Me Crawl

All these scars that are left on my heart that was ripped then shredded...

“To See Me Crawl”
I need some help.
Someone to understand.
Anyone listening,
I could use a hand.

Tell me, please,
I don’t know what to say.
Just answer one thing:
Why am I breathing today?

Is there any point
In me going on?
Just to live not loved?
Everything’s wrong.

Why am I looking
Straight in the eyes
Of the evil person
Whom I despise?

The one that took
My breathe away.
Who brought me laughter
Day by day...

Who made me smile
Who picked me flowers
Who gave me joy
In boring school hours

How could someone
I love so much
Cause me pain
Make me hurt and such?

And I begin to see
It really wasn’t work
For him
To pick me up from dirt

He laughed as he pushed me down
only to see me fall
All he ever wanted
Was to see me crawl