Red Opium.

They aren't really friends. I just call them that because I don't have any actual friends. Not me being whiney, just a fact. I'm basically a hermit. I never leave the house except to go to work or the grocery story. Occasionally if I get some extra money, I'll hit a bookstore, but usually even do that on Amazon.com. I'm not complaining. I just want to be a good person. It's rare that I pine for friends, but it does happen.

I relate to my students well though. It's strange. The type of people that hated me, and teased me, and spit on me in high school are the same type of students that think I'm the coolest teacher they have.

Can you believe it? The freaky kid grew up to become the "cool" teacher. go me.

I think that makes me hate me more. so does meeting my goals. i really did something great today with my writing, and it is probably going to push me farther in my writing, and yet it makes me feel worse. I just sit here and look at my arms and try to decide which direction i want to take.

Sorry. That turned really long. I'm not going to delete it though. I needed to get it out and deleting it just lets it live on in my head.

Sorry,
Nikaya BGG