Red Opium.

(sorry if this shows up in more than one forum...I'm basically just copy-and-pasting)

I guess this is a goodbye of sorts, although I'll make a more formal exit later. That is, unless I forget or you guys don't care, haha. I'm two weeks out of final exams, and then I'll be going home for the summer. I don't have the internet at home, so I won't be online until I get back to school in August.

Time is precious coming up to finals, and there's really no time for goofing off, so I can't do any of the assignments. I'd like to, but my upgrade's almost expired and I just don't have the time. I know that you'll understand.

Also, I don't know how to say this so that it doesn't sound mean, because it's not meant to be. I've decided that I need to start over. Just like wiping a slate clean, just like everything up until this point has been a dream; a horrible nightmare that I've just now awoken from. This doesn't mean that I'm going to forget what has happened to me, it means that I refuse to let it continue to hurt me even now. What's in the past is in the past, and those people cannot hurt me anymore. I'm soon to be engaged and we're going to get married after we graduate college. These are not things that I want to carry into a marriage. And I refuse to do so.

That being said, I hope you all can understand when I say that I won't be part of these groups anymore. I will continue to read and respond to posts when I can find time, but after May 6 (my birthday; coincidentally, the day of my REbirth as well) my w.com account will be deleted and I will no longer be a part of these groups.

I do consider all of you to be my friends, and I wish you all well in your lives. Like Aran says, there is no magic cure. You just simply have to have the strength to keep picking yourself up and then, one day, have the courage and strength to say to your demons, "ENOUGH. You cannot hurt me anymore." I know that it seems that day will never come, but I promise to you that it will.

[i]You don't fail if you fall...you fail if you don't try to get up.[/i]

God bless,
Ashley