Red Opium.

The one important thing I tell anyone who SI's is pleeese, don't count. Don't count the days, don't count the months and years and don't count the cuts or the bruises.
I stopped cutting for much longer than that and I slipped up in the last two years, it's a slip that's all, nothing more.
We try to get through each day without self harming, just one day at a time, same as an alcoholic or a drug addict. Alcohol and drugs are both coping methods just the same as our SI, we can only cope with one day at a time.

Stop beating yourself up about it, it was something you needed at the time, you won't always need it.

*hug*

Aran