Why do we try

In the darkness my soul sleeps waiting for a day it doesnt have to heal.
As i drop to my knees life breaks me down to the bitter cracks.
What do I see in this cruel unknown darkness that surrounds me.
I am alone here... I am to be forgotten like garbage to drift away and be the shadow of society that i am.
Am i anything in this life? did I help someone? did i atleast make a difference?
unknowing the answers i will walk back into the darkness to fade away.
I will fade until nothing remains, nothing even as little as a sliver of a memory.