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MIDNITE JOURNEY     Unfortanetly, my rising star sponsor is no longer a member of the community, but she will always be a friend and will always be in my heart for all she did for me and others here. Thank you stacylynn! Take a journey with me as I pen what comes to me in the darkest of the hour. Stay awhile, leave a comment or just read. Either way, I hope you get something out of what I may write here. Thanks for visiting. |
| So, as I stated in my last post, I couldn't find inspiration or rather my muse was eluding me. Guess she wasn't sure if I was really serious about wanting to get back to writing or not. Joke's on her this time. I WAS serious. It did take a lot of time, over a week, as a matter of fact, but I have been writing. My last post I had stated I started a short story, yeah, well, that one went NOWHERE. I tried for almost a week to get it where I wanted it and I couldn't. I just wasn't feeling it. So, I moved on from it and honestly, I don't think it is one I will go back to any time soon anyway. I started looking at writing prompts. I have a notebook I wrote a bunch down in, from this site as well as others on the internet. I didn't write any down that I knew I would never do, just ones I thought, maybe. I picked up my notebook everyday and read the prompts, seeing if my muse was going to reel one in and want to give it a go. There were a few I either got the first lines for or the ending, but that's all the playing with it my muse wanted to do. So, my next step was to get a hold of some contests on this site. Not so much as to enter them, but maybe at least get some inspiration. IT WORKED, y'all! I found a contest, Chapter One, that as I was reading through the rules and seeing the prompt, actually interested me and sparked something. Now, I have never intended on writing a novel. Short stories are my thing, and poetry, but NEVER novels. I don't have the patience for it. When I write, it's quick. I do not have the attention span on writing a novel. I could read numerous novels, no issue, but writing? Nope, I would give up half way through if not sooner. I just know that about me. So anyway, that very day, I started what would be the first chapter of a book I will never write. I worked on it all day, and then the next. And then the next day, I edited it. Then the next day, I put it in WORD on my computer. (I start every thing I write in pencil/pen and paper) I have never been able to start any other way. I don't know why, I just can't. Everyday I would go back and edit my chapter, adding here, deleting there, but never once changing it's direction. I stayed focused on what I wanted for this chapter and I kept at it until yesterday. Yesterday, after much arguing with myself, I added it to my portfolio.  What the hell, why not, right? I know I don't get views on here any more, and I understand, you get what you give out. I'm not expecting any and I won't beg for any either. So after I posted in my folio, I found the challenge, not that it was hard since I had it as a favorite, so all I had to do was look at the right side of my screen, haha. Y'all I entered it into the challenge! I'm not expecting ANYTHING from it at all. I already got out of it what I needed, SELF COURAGE.So win, loose, draw, no reviews at all, it honestly doesn't matter any more. I entered, and for me, that is a big step, especially after all these years of not writing, of not being on this site. I had to fight myself, argue my point with myself, fight my anxiety, and in the end, my anxiety lost. I WON this battle, no matter how small others may see it. For me, it is huge. And I AM PROUD OF ME! It's not an amazing chapter. Far from it. It's as good, maybe even worse then the stuff I used to write and post on here, but I did it. I refused to give up. Better yet, I didn't want to give up, because I honestly felt there was something to it. I wanted and needed to finish it and I did. Then I took another step and put it in my portfolio, then another step and I posted it in a contest. And now here I am writing about my accomplishment in my blog. I'm coming along, slowly, but surely and I'm wining the battle against me. Shhh. Whisper..... |
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