Wondering about my Wanderings

A time to write

I was looking for a prompt and a "time to write" seems a good one for this particular day.

I have been down in the dumps more so than usual. I hope to do something about it. I begin by drumming on my keys hoping for a measure of inspiration to uncloud the increasing darkness within. It is difficult to understand what moves a writer to keep going. In my case I feel handcuffed by my daily grind and doubts about ministerial conviction.

My response to that is to dig into scripture. It makes me feel immeasurably better. At the same time it serves as a reminder that I am like a fish out of water. I wonder if I have served my time as a professional minister or serving my time without ever knowing it. I talk to family back East and I am more aware than ever that there is a missing going on. The sister that I am closest to will fly over Kansas city to go to California. We laughed about it on the phone. The ties that bind seem untied and I am feeling at loose ends.

The best I know to do is to write about it. The blog seems like a dead place of late. It may be because I have not spent time looking at other blogs. The best I know to do is be faithful and write when I feel like it. As I have said at other times writing is the best therapy for a person like me. It may not meet other people's needs, but it does meet my own, to stay sane and grounded.
God bless.