Shellyville Continues

Understanding the roots

Hello my sunny pals,

I never have to look far if I want to understand the dysfunction in my life. All I have to do is gather my siblings. It is an amazing array of individuals that suffer from a wide range of mental disorders.

I am not kidding. The amount of anxiety and depression is insane. Plus the personality disorders! I don't know how my family got so lucky but I am guessing after 10 kids and the 70's, something was in the water!

I love my family! I love the variety of individuals but I am also grateful that most of them live out of state! I couldn't handle seeing them more then every few years. It would be too much of a chemical reaction for me to handle.

I know I am crazy but my level is considerably lower then most of my siblings. I am saddened by my one sister. I have her daughter here for the week and I am overwhelmed by her stories. I can see first hand what happens to individuals when they don't seek help. It's scary.

It must be very hard to recognize when you have a problem. When your family wants nothing to do with you. When you can't keep a job. When you have no real friends. How many clues do you need? I wonder what does it take to seek out help? The saddest part is that she is an adult and we can't force her to get counseling. We can't make her see her own problems.

Wow! It's going to be a long week!!

Love,
Michelle