Midnite Journey

I love Facebook! used to not but since last nite...

Last nite, right on facebook, I found my sister! Yes' my real sister.   We haven't spoken since a few months after 9/11. I remember being so worried about her because she was living in PA around where the plane went down there and I couldn't get a hold of her. My family has a really bad relationship all the way around. No one basically speaks to anyone, (not that I never tried to hold us together), unless it's around a birthday or holiday. In the past ten years I haven't heard from my sister and it's been about 7 years since I've talked to my mom or dad. Anyway, I've been looking for her for a long  time now searching my life and other sites that are supposed to be free (which they aren't by the way). No luck, till last night. It wasn't by fault of the sites I visited. No, I couldn't find her because I never knew her last name. She had been married 3 times before she was 22 and in the time from 9/11 till now, I had no clue if she was still in her last marriage or not.


I finally found her in PA, but under her last married name and a different city in PA. Several cities in PA actually. So, now knowing her last name, I searched facebook. Her picture was the first one to pop up and I knew it was her before looking at the nme. I cried and hard, like a baby. I was shaking and weeping as I pushed send friend request and it was even harder to send her a message. What do I say??? Been a long time.. Where the hell are you? No, I wrote OH MY GOD,  do you know how long I've been looking for you? I'm so glad I finally found you! Call me as soon as you get this. I left her my number and waited... and waited. I didn't sleep at all last night waiting for the damned phone to ring. It never did. I knew it wouldn't. She had no idea I had found her till she logged on to facebook. 


I woke up, rather got out of bed, at 8:30 this morning and waited... and waited... and waited. I logged on to facbook and stayed there, waiting. The longer I waited the more emotional I got. Then my mind started twirling with thoughts. What if she doesn't want anything to do with me now? What if her life is perfect and she can leave me out of it? The what if's and worrying drove me crazy! I was anxious and excited and scared.


Finally, she IMed me, then called. My heart beat fast, faster than it ever has! I couldn't even pick up the phone! Thank God, Robert was here! I heard her in the background, she was crying too. Robert told her to hang on a second, I needed to regain my composure. I knew there was a reason I love this man. He's my rock when I loose it. Anyway, we were both crying and emotional but we were able to catch up on our lives in the last ten years, brief discussions for now, just to get the gist of it all. She's happy for a change and she's gotten her life on the right track now. I thank God for that. For the longest time while trying to find her, I started to think there was a possibility she died, and it would not have surprised me to fnd out she had. It would have killed me but wouldn't have surprised me.


Anyway, we now are friends on facebook and have each others contact info so we WILL be keeping in touch! I'm not letting go of her so easily this time! Family is all we really have in this world and I'm starting to get mine back! Now, on to find my mother and grandmother, who I've heard have been living together for some years now in PA. No wonder I couldn't find my mom in Texas.








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