Distant Voices

i am here I am htere I am everywhere but not with you

He is gone, he tried to stay longer and i kept praying just fucking go leave the country dont come back i dont want you here.. i just wanna run the other way but i had to keep my cool act like all is well when in reality i wanted to kill him murder him, i dont know why he presumes buy me a whole bunch of stuff will shut me up... i dont know why he is so fucking insecure...


In the meantime i tried to connect to the net from home no use so i am sitting at my in laws without giving a shit and typing away chatting with chrystal laughing at the fact that she tired to kill her boyfriend with a knife.. sometimes i wish i was there just to be a witness and say she didnt do nothing she is as innocent as me.

I miss everyone but at the same time i dont want to talk to anyone.. people are useless they say things they dont mean they do things they dont want.. and its unfortunate i am one of them.

lately my family has been occupying my house every single day and i am bored of them but without them i would kill myself... its like i dont know what i want anymore.. i am fucking headcase