Journal/Blog

Forever Waiting

I feel like I'm always waiting.  Waiting for my life to change; to lose weight, to fall in love, to go back to the doctor's office. 

I seem to have lost all control of my life. It has become predictable, and mundane. My health is steadily declining and caring for my daily needs has become burdensome, and complicated by persistant pain. 

My friends have gone on with their lives. Some don't even bother to call anymore. I'm not mad, just sad and lonely.

I knew this was coming, after all, we all age, just didn't realize I would be so debilitated so young.

I was always such a proud "BBW". (big beautiful woman)
My 5'7" frame could easily support my curvy 200 # plus body.  But as my age and weight steadily increased, my joints began to object. 






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