So this is Life??

The End

Well, if the purpose of this journal was to chronicle my relationship with Stephan, then this is going to be my final entry.

I broke up with Stephan last night. Things just weren't working out and I was losing myself. I couldn't stay in the relationship that had me compromising who I was just to avoid an argument.

Besides, I'm only 19. I have so much living to do. I'm too young to be tied down to any one particular person.

And I'm hopelessly in love with Cecil. That has been a serious strain on my relationship with Stephan. Although he knew what the deal was. I don't have the strength to be their for someone.
I'm tired of always having to be the strong one to hold him up. Why can't he hold me up? I was tired of constantly have to stroke his ego. That just wasn't working.

I need to be by myself and concentrate on my school work and establishing some serious friendships. I still love him. I"m just not in love with him.