Daily Writing Challenge

M-6

Nine hundred seventy five words due today. I double checked the date and number everything seems to be in line. I still do not know what the penalty for mislabling the third's entry will be. There is no mention of a penalty in the frequently asked questions or anywhere else i can find. I can not be the only one who screwed it up like this, can I? Could I be? I am so tired today, I drank an iced coffee with extra espresso. All it managed to do was make me nauseous enough to lose half of my dinner. It feels really late in the day but it is only six forty two here. I want to go to bed now. I need to do this. I do not want to do this. I do not feel like writing. I do not know what to write. I do not know how to write. What should I write? How should I write? Why should I write? Why do I write? Why do i not want to write? Do i not want to create? Do I not want to play? Do I not want to see what my characters are going to do next? To be honest, i have not been playing with my characters here anyway. All I have really been doing is bitching about not wanting to write, not knowing what to write, and how tired I am. I really am tired though. I am exhausted. Life is sucking right now and i just can not seem to rest. Last night was a wild night. I fell asleep cuddling my wife, but had to roll over because she kept jerking her arm away from me and my leg was going numb. I think I rolled over at about eleven. Then i dreamed dreams that felt like they took at least eight hours to happen. Then the alarm went off for me to give gracie her pill at one. I thought it was morning but it had only been two hours. Then i went back to sleep and that felt like it lasted five minutes before the nine oclock alarm went off to give the dogs their meds. I didn't even really feel like i slept. It was a time warped kind of sleep last night. Grammarly is flagging me big time tonight but I am getting better at ignoring it. Maybe someday i will be able to ignore the inner editor long enough to get a first draft done without editing it.

We have a big thunderstorm passing by us right now. it might produce a tornado, not likely but possible enough that we are in a tornado watch. The funny thing is that there is a winter weather advisory on the same page of our weather forecast. Last week we were having snow, today we were over sixty degrees and tonight we will be in the high twenties so flurries are not impossible but the precipitation is supposed to be over by the time it gets that cold. I wonder how many words I am going to get done tonight. I have been running over the daily goals by at least twenty five words. Sometimes it has been a hundred or more words. Right now I am at about five hundred fifty words.
that leaves four hundred and twenty five I think.

Right now my wife is watching a mini series on the BTK killer. They are putting him on trial right now. He just made a speech about how he was so like his victims. Now they are discussing the sentence he recieved. He is serving ten life sentences. My spelling is terrible today. Three hundred and fifty words left to write. I do not want to write. I do not feel like writing. I do not know what to write. I can do this. I can write nine hundred and seventy five words today. I CAN do this. I can handle this challenge. I CAN handle this challenge. I will write. I will write three hundred more words. I can do this. I can wait to go to bed. I will stay awake. I have drank five water bottles, one twenty four ounce fruit juice cocktail, and a large mcdonald's mocha frappe. i should go get another water bottle. That way when I actually get thirsty I have something to drink. It would be good in case i get hiccups. They tore down BTK's house. That is a good thing. people would be visiting it and disturbing the neighborhood more than it already has been to take pictures and steal pieces as souvenirs. Seven hundred seventy seven words only two hundred words left to write. I do not know what to write about now. I do not feel like writing more . I do not want to write. Why do I have to write? Just be cause I signed up for the second month of this crazy challenge. THere goes another roll of thunder. I feel really bad for BTK's daughter, and her family. I have a cat in my lap and he just had a sneezing fit under my lap desk. He popped the cupholder out of the slot. I think my wife's Video is over. I wonder what she will watch next.

It is raining pretty hard again. I just had a pop up from my email advertising viagra at home. There aren not any men here I do not know why i get stuff like that. I really do not know why i get porn ads. I have never googled it. I have never submitted my email to anything remotely related to it and yet I get it. It looks like the wife is going to watch more true crime. Nope, Instead she decided to put spotify on the tv and watch facebook videos on her phone. So instead of watching her show over the top of my computer screen I have to completely turn away from my computer to check out what she is watching. THat makes me even less productive than when she is watching things on the tv. Whoops I am over a thousand words now. I do not need to go that high until tomorrow. Byeee.