Thoughts of a Mad Man

Love letter to an irredeemable lost cause

Excerpt from a discussion about an incident with my ex





I want to tell youbwhat I would say if I could magically quantum leap into that moment





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SHELLY my love I have been thinking about this "question" for years and in a moment-not yet-I will give you the answer the yes you deserve. But before I comply I will tell you what your words asked for





Originally I thought you wanted an explanation and I gave you a compliment disguised as an explanation that sounded like a copout and felt like a refusal.





You have given me so mjch I would have to be insane to ask for more. If I did it would be less effort a d more simply being.





AND toward that I will respond not to the question I heard but the request ai made.





*And instead of simply basking I woukd begin to stroke her.*