This journal is fiction. The voice you’re reading is a character, not the author. |
031326. This journal is fiction. The voice you’re reading is a character, not the author. Friday the 13th Planning for a not-date. Some people think that date carries bad luck. Tonight it just feels like another quiet evening, though I did smile to myself when I realized what day it was. Yesterday ended up being busier than I expected. Between getting my hair done, having my nails manicured, and spending far longer shopping than I ever planned, I suppose I accomplished quite a bit of quiet “preparation” for my very unofficial, definitely-not-a-date brunch with Paul on Sunday. At least that is what I keep telling myself. This evening I actually laid out the outfit I plan to wear. The new jeans, the ones I bought yesterday that somehow fit perfectly. The soft baby pink sweater that felt cheerful the moment I saw it in the store. And my blue jean jacket to wear over it if the morning air is still cool. And the to-die-for stiletto pink heels that almost perfectly match the sweater and my nail polish. Seeing everything together on the bed made me pause for a moment. It looks like the kind of outfit someone chooses when they are looking forward to being somewhere. That realization made me laugh a little at myself. I cannot remember the last time I thought this carefully about what I was going to wear to meet someone. For a long time my clothes were simply practical things to get through the day without drawing attention. Now here I am planning an outfit for brunch. Maybe it is not really about the clothes. Maybe it is about the feeling behind them. A small spark of anticipation. The quiet awareness that I am stepping a little farther back into the world than I have been in quite some time. Sunday is still two days away. But tonight, looking at those folded clothes, I realized something simple. I am actually looking forward to it. |